kafka said he wanted to be dragged
by a rope tied like a noose thru a house
limbs being ripped from him
the person dragging him
not even caring
what they're doing
and honestly
I know the feeling

forgiveness works

forgiveness works silently
almost imperceptibly. such
that when we must
do a big forgiveness
its mechanisms remain
mysterious


i keep missing letters
in the words i'm writing
so i'm sure i'm dyslexic
or just smoken
too many bongs


i wore short shorts today only
to sit on nothing
but vinyl seats
next to mirrors and windows
and had trouble
loving myself
for how i look


but i look good
if you know what i mean
but i could always look better
if you know
what i mean


i'm sick of all these
'i look cute today'
feminist selfies
but i'm also very much
aware of my bitterness
and my mourning
for my 19 year old body
that went undocumented
and for the most part
untouched
by any hand
but my own


now at the coming
of age age for hobbits
i feel mostly good
about and in
my body tho
its mechanisms
remain mysterious


when i write you a letter
about forgiveness i feel
embarrassed and pious
and don't know what i'm trying
to say but only that
i need it

internet real estate

what is writing
a blog again?

what is having
a body again?

Side by Side (Slacker and Swinging, the best way to send a message)

Side by Side, in the Kitchen

Chemistry.

Side by Side, So Darn Hot

Side by Side, Back to Back

Side by Side (On the Other Side of 27, Screwing Up On Top Non Stop Edition)

C'mon Progeny!

Side by Side (Dancing at the Lesbian Bar Edition)

(Verity Susman and Emma Gaze from Electrelane played these two songs back to back at their DJ set last night. I danced pretty effing hard.)

Side by Side (Lonely and Depressed Edition)

Side by Side (In the Special Area)

(I am so, so sorry about this)

Side By Side (Friends)

(I saw Unknown Mortal Orchestra play last night, I would highly recommend it.
These songs could also come under "Songs of Significance 2011")

Sighs by Thighs

Side By Side

Side By Side

Let's Party Like it's 2001ish

Hourly Comic Day

Hey

As Though Writing a Blog

"Reb Natan, writes that his master [Reb Nachman] said that one studies Torah as though studying Torah, prays as though praying, and performs the commandments as though performing them. There can be no true worship of God, only pretend worship, which becomes transmuted into worship by realizing its comic nature."

From Abraham! Abraham! Kierkegaard and the Hasidim on the Binding of Isaac by Jerome I. Gellman

I love this!

Thus, I'm going to write my thesis as though writing my thesis, and hopefully that will work out ok.